comeoncamille

Things are really starting to come together. I'm really loving it. My interview at Sense's went great! I'm gonna go back for a practical interview next week. I love the spa. It's really holistic. They're even opening a yoga studio in the back room. It's right in the heart of the art district too. I'm stoked.
This morning I rode my bike to Belmont Shore to see Jacqueline. Remind me to never ride that far ever again. I was dying. Jacqueline gave me cup cakes though, so it evened out.
The weather is out of this world today. Life feels really good right now.

Today again as been good.
I bought my school books. It cost me $175. Fucking hell, highway robbery.
Then I filled out an application at The Erogenous Zone. I hope I get the job, that would be so much fun.
Then I flirted with the hot guy at Hole Mole.
Now I'm gonna watch the rest of season two of Dead Like Me.

Today was pretty good. We pre-recorded today, fo reasons unknown to me, I'm just along for the ride The show went so well. It's just Kim and I now and Brya and Megan in the studio, so it's super relaxed. But th best part was today Bryan and I totally clicked. First h told me I was really good at making mixes and then tol me he had been saving my CDs and taking them home. When I told hi he was retarded he said 'hey, I thought we were a team'. Then we argue over the Arcade Fire. He told me I had really good taste in music! At th end of the show he asked if I wanted to go to the Of Montreal show an then worked really hard to get me on the list. He then proceeded to as for my phone number. But the best best part was when Kim said sh thought Bryan liked me. It was just so good. Bryan is my dream guy. H has good tattoos, he's tall but not skinny, he has facial hair, he's fro Nebraska, he has the best sense of humor and he has the hottest jo ever. I really hope he likes me and doesn't have a girlfriend. This is m year for love, so I had better actually find someone I like
"It's the Cake and Napalm show, goddamit."

No one in my English class had ever heard of the Lady of Shalott before. Or Lord Alfred Tennyson. Ever.

I have been sick since Jordan left. I don't know what i is, my nose is just always runny and I have a reall gnarly cough
I have decided what the next tattoo I'm gonna get will be. I'm going to get "here's the story of the hurricane" on the top of my wrist. Just something to tie me over before I can afford my heart. For those of you who don't know I was named after the hurricane Camille which hit New Orleans in 1966 and was only second worst to hurricane Katrina in the history of the US.
I have school from 4 to 9 today. I really don't want to get out of bed. I feel like shit.
I am now obsessed with the show Dead Like Me. Watch it, it's the best TV show I've seen in my life.

I'm so in love with Bryan it's disgusting. And I'm just depressed about it. I feel like he might like me back, but then I'm horrible at reading signs. I guess we'll see.

Ew, everything I own smells like cigarettes. Including my cash and chapstick. This only makes me wanna smoke more, unfortunately.

Goddamn. When I woke up this morning I couldn't open my eyes or move my body. I drank two beers last night and right now I'm so hung over I can barely function. We went to Bang! and danced the night away. I can't write anymore cause I'm too retarded right now.

Last night was so strange. I'm too drunk to try an recall most of it
This is what I know:
Jordan and I went out with Jon.
We went to Famima.
We got drunk.
We went to Jon's office and sang and drank Jack.
We went to Andrew's house. (Hah)
Andrew took me out to korean food at 6 in the morning.
I had sex with Andrew (his name isn't really Andrew [ it's funny because I kept calling him Andrew even when I was fucking him and I don't know any Andrews.])
I got a bloody nose while I was banging.
When asked if I had my period, I said no I'm a virgin and then got told, yeah fucking right.
We stumbled around Hollywood when it was 5 degrees outside.
I'm sure there is more. But there is HOLE MOLE with my name on it that I need to devour now.

I have a big fat crush on Kim. I love when you meet people and you're totally infatuated with them. She just called me and she calls me Cake, even though I call her Kim. She also introduces and refers to me as Cake, I absolutely love it. It's like she has nickname for me already. Heh. Wow, this just goes to show how long it has been since I've met a new girlfriend.

thought that when I got home I was going to b lonely and depressed but it's quite the opposite. I fact I think I am in the best mood I've ever been in m entire life. And all I've done today is talk to Ayumi o the phone and go grocery shopping
I don't ever remember being as happy with my life as I am right now. I am actually ecstatic, not just happy. And for no reason at all. I am just so content with life.
It is 86 degrees outside. Not a cloud in the sky. There's a breeze. The ocean is beautiful. It's January-fucking-8th.
Ayumi read me my fortune today. This year is going to be great. I'm so stoked. I'm going to work so hard and really put my mind to all my tasks. I'm gonna make money, I'm gonna meet someone special, I will be better in my human relationships, and I'm going to be able to see and try new things. I'm going to make sure that this is the best year ever.
Ayumi also told me that how I would meet my significant other would be really sweet and kinda romantic. It would be one of those accidental, spontaneous meetings, like I'll be sitting next to him on an airplane or I'll loose something and he'll return it to me. Hot, huh?
I have my 3 hour test tonight. But that's not a bad th

I kinda have a crush on my life today
To start, it was like 75 all day today and not a cloud in the sky.
I went and pre-recorded with Missy & Napalm (Kim). That was fun cause there were lots of people in the studio and an overall silliness in the air. But the best part was after the show when Bryan asked me for a cigarette and we smoked together and talked and then he gave me his card. He also said he'd get me a ticket to the Of Montreal show he is promoting. I fucking am in love with him. He is so weird and so boyish, it really gets me.
Then Kim and I ended up hanging out at Melrose. She knew a piercer so she took me to him. I got my nipples pierced. (They look amazing.) The piercer, Guy, was really cute, funny and sweet. He gave me a discount and then gave me soap and solution free of charge. He told me I had really cute nipples. He also pinch my cheek and told me I was adorable, which is the most affection I have gotten in like a year. We hung out at his piercing shop for a while and then Kim and I went and got some food. I'm on my detox, so I had an avocado and a cup of tea. We just talked and totally hit it off. It is going to be she and I hosting the show now. We totally clicked so I have a feeling we're going to have a really good time. She invited me to a Burlesque show on the 17th and told me she would like to come to my shoot next week with Drew. I really dig her. I'm just so happy to hang out with a girl I actually get along with.
When I was driving home she sent me a text saying Guy thought I was hot and super cool. Heh.
So today was good and fun.
Tomorrow I have a big ol' test at school.

What an interesting past two weeks. I guess th best part is that I can hardly remember most of it seeing as I was stoned consistently every night for tw weeks. Now I am home and the real new year begins
When I got home my computer would not turn on. I had a mental breakdown and called Phillip, crying that I had no one to fix my computer and this was the last straw and I might as well move back home. He talked me through it and got my computer up and running. ( I have issues.)
Last night I stayed up till 4 in the morning, hella sick, smoking on the hour, every hour, working on my mix for tomorrow.
I have so much on my mind right now.

I'm back from Oregon. I actually had a pretty good time.
On New Years I went bar hoping with my Dad. The best part of the night was when an extremely attractive fellow asked me to make out behind the christmas tree. I politely refused explaining I was with my father.
After that I was sick for the rest of the trip. Also not so bad seeing as there was an ANTM marathon in my hotel room.
Now I'm home and at Troy's.

I had a great night. Troy, Sofia, Natasha & I wen iceskating. We got high before we went, which ma have been the best or worst idea ever. At one point w had a train going and Troy decided to make a fanc move resulting in Sofia and I eating shit. I was laughin so hard, laying there in my tiny little skirt, soaked o the ice, I almost peed my pants with joy
After that we went back to Troy's and got more high and then made a feast. It always seems like such a good idea to cook a meal when you're stoned but really it's terrible. Three uncordinated stoners a meal does not make. (That didn't make any sense.)
I'm going to Oregon right now. Yes, I won't be here for New Years. But I've decided New Years is lame anyways. I can get drunk whenever I want, I don't need a bad excuse for merry making.
( stoner words of wisdom. )

Christmas was christmas. Nothing exciting. Only this year I got to get really high and hang out.
Last night I went to my Nonni & Nonno's 50th anniversary. I had to sit at the kids table all night and listen to a rather large group of 14 y/o talk on their cells phones. I think the waiter took pity on me and decided to bring me glass after glass of champagne. Lucky for me my 17y/o cousin thought that she could get away with ordering drinks, resulting in me getting the blame for her negligence. And the food wasn't even that good.
I can't stop thinking about my future. And the present. And the recent past which I am starting to regret.

I have written in a couple days and a lot of stuff ha happened
On tuesday evening I went to the Blue Cafe to see Will and his band play. After the show Will, Anna, Clay & his girlfriend and her friend came over to my house. We had fun drinking and smoking. Clay's girlfriend and her friend ended up leaving because Clay and her got into a fight, which was really funny. All night Anna kept on getting pissed at Will too. It made me so happy I was single. I'm just one of the guys and that is so much better. All their girlfriends hate me too, cause I'm just the chill chick their boyfriend's rather hang out with. Anyway, we pulled an all nighter and at 6 in the morning I packed all my shit, drove them home and then drove to Sacramento. I was so hung over and tired I had to pull over and sleep for like an hour. I don't even remember ever driving here.
Wednesday night I went to Stockman's in the village with Jenny, which was really quite comical. I was the only chick in the bar besides Jenny, who was with somes guys. Everytime one guy would get up and leave the seat next to me, another would sit down. I was so high I offended about half of them. But I ended up making friends with this really funny guy named Stever and he stayed in the hot seat for the rest of the night and we laughed.
On thursday night I got my ID taken away and I can't really talk about it cause everytime I think about it I tear up. If anyone knows anyone who makes IDs, I'm willing to pay.
Last night Ayumi and I went christmas shopping but I can't remember anything cause I was really stoned.
My parents just got back from Mexico and they brought me lots of pretty stuff. I'm happy they're home.
I've decided to try and get into Tulane University. I'm going to have to work really hard and stick out community college for a couple semesters but I'm determined. I picked out all my classes already and figured out my major/minor, now I just need to actually do it. This time I really am gonna do it. I know what I need to do and where I need to be, I just have to make it happen.
"Let's stay at the bar, this is where they keep the alcohol."

first line of the first entry of each month in 2006.

[january] I got sick.
[february] My life is Lost in Translation, except everyone speaks english.
[march] I'm in New Orleans.
[april] Rob just came over and we talked.
[may] Last night was Jon's birthday, I don't even know what happened last night, I have a vague recollection of peppermint schnapps.
[june] My tattoo is peeling.
[july] Here I am, drunk and waiting for his phone call on a saturday night.
[august] My second set went live today on SG.
[september] I passed stateboard.
[october] Last night Ayumi and I smoked and did yoga.
[november] Halloween was out of fucking control.
[december] I have the stomach flu.

Okay, I need to obsess for like one second. The show sound great tonight, I'm so stoked. But the best part was when Brian chose to play 'baby, it's cold outside' last, which wasn't how the line up was. ("baby, it's cold outside" was my christmas song that I gave him just incase and he chose to play it over the other stuff Missy gave him.)
I don't know how to feel about my new life style of staying up til 2 am every sunday and being in love with a "taken man". I guess, such is life.
(PS. No I didn't really obsess over that. How do I let men reduce me to this?)

My parents just called me from Mexico. I'm s jealous. My dad told me how him and Carmel ar on a tequila hunt. And my mom was talking about he amazing massage and how they eat three meals at da at a 5 star restaurant. So unfair, I want to be drunk i Mexico with my dad in 80 degree weather eating meals a day
I had two interview with Buffalo Exchange. I think they both went really well and hopefully I'll be able to get the job. I really just need something to pre-ocupy myself. And from everything they told me, it sounds like a great little job.

went to the photo shoot yesterday. It was really coo getting shoot with really hip Japanese people. But was really disappointed meeting some of the SGs. I wa just not interested in any of them. In fact, I was reall annoyed and unimpressed with a few. I know I'm jus going off first impressions but it was prett disappointing. I guess I always thought you had to be a genuinely coo person to be a SG, but now I see it doesn't really matter. I still love Miss and I really dug Sawa & Acrid and I'm sure there are some reall awesome girls out there, but it definitely made me question my existenc on the site
I found my paycheck, which made me so so very happy.
I can't wait to get to Sacramento for Christmas. I'm so happy to be going back. What is gonna happen on New Years?
My mix tape mix CD is coming along nicely but I still don't have a CD burner, which is still a problem.
I have an interview at Buffalo Exchange tomorrow.